I made a HUGE decision tonight. As of now, please just pray it's the right one.
Keep praying.
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
My Dad Told Me to Kill Myself
So, I tried it. I obviously (and thankfully) failed, but it forced me to have to spend the weekend in Georgia Regional's mental hospital. What an eye opener! I met a lot of women just like me...and a lot of women much crazier than me. But I left with a sense of who I am, who I can be, and I think that I might have made some lives a little better. Please never cease praying for me. Bipolar disorder is a complicated monster, and it may take a while to figure out now to balance my unstable brain. Special thanks to Helen, Mama, Aunt Marilyn, and Aunt Donnie, whose visits and phone calls kept me (mostly) sane. I love each and every person who is reading this!
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
So, I had a nervous breakdown
And I'm not ashamed to say it. I take on a lot. I am strong enough to take on a lot. But I am fragile. I break. And this weekend, I shattered. I have been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and Intermittent Explosive Disorder. You can call me crazy and treat me different if it makes you feel better, but I have a disease; it doesn't have me. I have come to realize that none of this is my fault. Or your fault. Or hers or his. I have a sick, unstable brain. I was born this way. But it will no longer control me, defeat me, and make me feel stupid.
I just need y'all to love me through it.
Keep praying.
Saturday, March 2, 2013
I'm a Disappointment
And nothing more.
Keep praying. I need it. I feel like a failure lately, though amazing things abound.
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